Last week my insides felt like they were in a state of civil war.
For the second time in six months, I had a bad case of gastritis (inflammation of the stomach lining).
Gastritis is caused by a perfect storm of bad lifestyle habits (eating late, skipping meals and too much coffee) and stress. This meant a week in bed, two trips to the hospital, loads of medication and a million baths to manage the pain.
There is nothing like a week on your back (come on now) to put things into perspective. At the times when I could think of something other than ‘ouch’ ‘ow’ and ‘F#%$&##K’ I started to mull things over, mainly how I’d been treating myself and how my lifestyle needed to change.
I have lots of jobs, as I’m sure you’re aware, but my main jobs involve taking care of other things. I’m a dog sitter, house sitter and full-time girlfriend. My thoughts are preoccupied with the needs of others: are they hungry? tired? thirsty? Need a pat on the head?
And I’d like to think I’m good at this too. I can be a bit of a fun sucker at times, yeah, but to date, I’ve not lost a doggy client or been dumped *touches wood*.
So if I can do it so well for others then why can’t I do it for myself?
I guess what I’m talking about here is self-care ~and~ credit where credit’s due, I’m a little better than I used to be but it’s (obviously) still not enough. I need to make some lifestyle changes pronto!
As an entrepreneur (feels silly saying that) I’m always taking on too much work; I’m rubbish at saying no and I don’t stop until I’m too broken to carry on. I worry the world won’t spin without me, but when it does keep turnin’ I realise I don’t need to try and be all to all.
So this is a pledge to myself and hopefully, inspiration for you lot to stop taking the weight of the world on your shoulders, to let more things go and have full respect for yourself and your health.
This week make time to check in with yourself: are you tired? Are you hungry? Do you need a pat on the head?